Life is not a bed of roses

MeD dinner and dance photos...

2005-09-20T17:44:00.000-07:00

haha it's been a mth since the Med dinner and dance??? Mann...took me sooo long to really sit down and upload the photos..now that it's done.Have fun viewing...there's a link to the photos at the side.

Think i look kinda sun-burnt in the pics..ah well..thank goodness my tan-lines are not that obvious.Had to wear the gown in the halter form n not spagetti or it'll really expose my UGLY UGLY tan-lines.crap.i'm still trying to get rid of em.sigh...tan-through bikinis are bloody expensive and incredibly UGLY. 100bucks for something that ugly???can't bring myself to buy it even though i think i need one.sigh..wish that money really grows on trees...haha

outings!

2005-09-20T17:37:00.000-07:00

Went out with jing last last Sat for a girly outing.Needed all i could to lift my mood...so we went shopping and ate good food! Met Beng Kiong for dinner at Heeren's Sakae cos he was bored...haha..he's quite a cute and funny guy..ah well..went to Acid Bar for drinks and live music.The solo female singer who performs there on thurs and sat night is soooo freaking good! we requested quite a number of songs and she performed to our expectations..

That's us in Acid Bar.

That's me n my bestest friend!!!she's so cute huh!!

Us again!!chio???i'm kidding...haha.dun phuke.

Went out with gillian,meiyi and Jing last fri.Had to meet meiyi before she flies off to chicago this thurs...Had dinner at Taka Coffee Club.

That's me before i tucked into my super greasy beef bourgainour.Found out after the dish came that it's so oily!!!totally regretted ordering.

Chatted for a while and left the restaurant at around 10 plus. Gillian, meiyi and jing are all attached...all blissfully and only recently in love...haiz..only poor me left...nvm!i still lovee my gfs very much!At most, i'll go harrass them in future if i stay unmarried...*evil laugh*

we look disjointed in this photo so we got someone else to take again...

now,that's better huh...

wat a song...

2005-09-19T13:51:00.000-07:00

What You're Made Of" - Lucie Silvas

Just like I predicted, we're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim
'Cause I chose the waters that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

[Chorus]
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,You're changing,Cause some things will just never be mine,
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.

I hear you talking, but your words don't mean a thing
I doubt you ever put your heart into anything
It's not much to ask for, to get back what I put in
But I chose the waters that I'm in
And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

[Chorus]
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,You're changing,Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.

What's your definition of the one?
What do you really want him to become?
No matter what I sacrifice it's still never enough.
Just like I predictedI will sink before I swim
'Cause these are the waters that I'm in

[Chorus]
If it's not what you're made ofYou're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,You're changing,'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time.

Oh, if it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,You're changing,'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time
You're not in love this time
You're not in love this time...

it's the wkends again

2005-09-16T08:52:00.000-07:00

wkends are here again...sigh...mug mug mug...actually i dunno why i'm blogging...i'm not the kind to blurt out my feelings,even to friends. guess i just feel like blogging to no one. it's great to keep a diary...at least ur diary understands u.

been slacking for 2 days already...terrible huh.Couldn't bring myself to mug and i dunno why.kinda feeling down again maybe.

this wk has been pretty alright. been trying so hard to not think bout him.i guess i can be said to be 'happy'. But it's the kind of happiness that is fleeting and almost superficial. i miss being truly happy and feeling right in life. everything feels wrong. being in sch and attending lectures feel wrong.chatting with friends in the canteen feels wrong. i dunno. i'm confused. been confused for quite some time.so wat's new.

went out with jing,meiyi and gillian today...had a nice long chat with hamid n company at coffee bean taka before that. really fun...had dinner with the gals and a nice chat..great to catch up with friends and finding out what they've been up to. took pictures but they r taking so so super long to upload that i think i can't wait any longer...something's wrong with the internet today...argh!

he's now in tioman..probably just reached on the diving boat. sigh...with everyday that passes, it feels like he's drifting further n further away.soon, he'll be out of sight. great..maybe my life will be back to normal after that n i'll be happy again. feels like i've aged so much.a 30 yr old in a 20 yr old body.sigh..gonna try my best at being happy n not thinking of him this wkend!!!!!! he'll be back on sunday...not going to let him affect me the way he is now...not worth it! yes,he's not worth it.i'll drill that a hundred times in my mind everyday before i sleep.yeah,that's progress right?

sian-ism

2005-09-13T07:54:00.000-07:00

sch was boring like hell...lecture after lecture...sigh!

really thankful to all my friends for being there for me through this difficult period.

Esp Jing. She has been my pillar of support.Thx gal...without you,i wouldn't noe how else to hold on to life. You've been such a great adjuvant and booster to my immune system...hopefully,i'll recover real soon and be the same old me again!!

Thx hammie..for always making me smile in sch with ur silly goofy grin...thx for being such a dear friend. And thx for being so sweet with the nice rose pin and note. You made me realise that there're so many other people who truly care for me.

Thx asrie...For always being there to listen to my incessant complaints regarding bgr.For always being so concerned about my emotional health. And for tolerating my fickle-mindedness.

Thx daniel..for all ur advice and distractors. You're such a great pal!

Thx Tang..for all ur hypomaniac antics. They cheer me up. Your happiness is infectious. It's a pity i don't see u in sch often, u busy person.

sometimes i still wonder if we do still stand a chance together. Guess that thought will keep bothering me till the day i stop loving him. Time heals all wounds. That saying has been proven and i'm glad for that. And i'm going to leave things the way they are...and stop trying to control how things work out. If we were to end up as strangers in future, den so be it. I'll not regret my decision.

an entry from my bestest fren!! :>

2005-09-11T01:22:00.000-07:00

when someone is very important to you, your attention is fixated on just that person alone. you live your life to accomodate that person's way of life and in the end you realise you don't really mean that much to that person and you end up hurting yourself. basically you feel like a bird trapped in a cage but the irony is that the cage is not locked: you are free to leave. it's not making you happy so why stay? just leave.. leave because you will be liberated from all the unhappiness and pain you felt previously. initially you might feel like nothing is right and that you will never ever be a happy person again. but as days go by, you will feel the change in yourself. you become happier, you see things in a different light, you become the good old confident person you originally were and voila! that's liberation. the road to recovery is long and full of obstacles but it's really up to us, fang. and when your attention is fixated on someone who's not making you happy, you tend to miss out on a lot of things. for example, there might be someone else who has been there caring for you, praying for your happiness, not expecting anything in return but secretly wishing you would turn your attention to him.. haha, okay that sounds like one of those scenes in movies. but seriously, it can happen to you. when one door closes, another opens. it's just that we are too preoccupied to notice the newly opened door. so if anyone feels unhappy in a relationship and knows that everything's not right but is afraid of letting go, muster your courage and let it go. you are the only one who can save yourself from all the unhappiness, misery and tears. and don't tell yourself that you are not falling in love anymore. because then, you'll REALLY be missing out on a lot of things! *grin* when we find the right one, things might not be all rosy but the difference is that both of you will wanna smooth the rough edges TOGETHER and he will be willing to make changes cos he wants your happiness as much as he wants his own. he will not leave you alone to go through tough times. so you see, we just gotta find the right one! dont ever give up, my dear girl! haha... so funny. SDU will probably welcome me as a volunteer. seriously, start dating other guys!! haha. that's it, fang, you're on your own every weekend starting next week. instead of meeting jing, you will meet new guys.. wEe!~ linus said he wishes to let girls know that there are still good guys out there. so i assume he has friends who are gd guys and are unattached?? haha! and yes pls, eat more.. i'll personally feed you n try to fatten you up, don't worry. oh and when i said im leaving you alone, i was only kidding. how can i ever leave my darling best friend alone? hEehEeHeeeE.. okay back to my case study. cheer up! -big hugs-

learning to let go...

2005-09-11T01:18:00.000-07:00

sometimes, it's only a blurred line between love and sense of attachment for someone.That's especially true when you've been together with someone for a really long time...You kinda grow so used to seeing the person, calling him at night and just doing simple little things together that leaving him, leaves you with nothing at all...

i'm trying so terribly hard to learn to let go of someone...someone whom i've loved and cared for for the past 2 and a half years...it's so terribly difficult that i usually end up so depressed when i think of all the happy memories together. Guess i've to learn to accept the fact that it's really over and there's no turning back...to draw a conclusion to such a long relationship is painful to say the least. i'm fighting myself everyday...i'm fighting the addiction to him..i'm fighting my love for him...and most of all,i'm fighting for a happier life... i just want to be happy again...wonder how that feels like..haven't felt happy for more than a month...

why isn't there a manual that teaches people how to forget someone?? why must i learn it the hard way myself?? wish there's something in life that could make me happy right now...maybe i should get a dog...haha...it's loyal and cute..it listens to me..and i get to see it whenever i want to...you can say that i'm a control freak.i'm not denying that...cos i know i am...

maybe that's why i'm finding it so hard to let go...i'm still trying to control this failed relationship...sigh...wish i could love him a lot lesser and love myself a lot more...yeah..that's rite! i need to love myself a lot more!!!! why should i suffer like that over someone who's so passive and not even missing me?? is he even half as affected?? why?? does losing me mean anything to him?? he's not worth my pain...hope he realises that i'm really walking out on him this time...

alright...enough venting for tonight...sch's tmr...long day...sigh sigh sigh...wish i could take a holiday to a faraway place....

2005-09-07T22:06:00.000-07:00

Tears and Rain - James Blunt

How I wish I could surrender my soul
Shed the clothes that become my skin
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away
find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same
it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say,
but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words
it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind
Hold memory close at hand
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away
find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same
it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say,
but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away
find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same
it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words
it's just tears and rain.

kinda depressed.......

2005-09-07T21:43:00.000-07:00

i know i haven't been blogging for months...things haven't been exactly rosy and that's why i couldn't bring myself to blog all the unhappy events..i'm blogging again because i think no one's gonna read my blog after such a long long hiatus...that's exactly what i want actually...

life has come to a standstill for me...been depressed for wks...the reason is obvious...my love life is in ruins.. HA HA...what's new anyway..problems that bug adolescents- love life,academics,family and money... ah well...

it hurts so much to love someone that i don't think i'll ever allow myself to fall for anyone again...no more bgr for me..and yes,i've decided to stay single all my life..think life's a lot simpler and happier like that..just hoping that my wounds will heal asap and they won't be hurting me any longer..i'm so sick and tired of all these crap..sighhh...i'm alright i guess,except for the fact that i haven't really found my appetite...been eating so little everyday..think i lost another kg..losing weight has never been easier..everyone's complaining that i'm getting too skinny and i know that i am getting too skinny but i can't really help it...even jianhong,whom i'm not close to, has been giving me little snacks...but seriously,i think i've lost interest in eating...make sense? haha..but being a medical student, i know what is needed to stay alive so i stick to the min required..that's good huh..i'm not turing anorexic!!! so to my friends out there, don't worry yah...i'll try to get my appetite back again soon....

lots of stuff to mug..lots of class stuff to settle...great..they keep my mind off the troubles and sadness...that's what i need..shall turn into a workaholic from now on...need more money to sustain my shopping sprees..it's the only thing that's keeping me happy now..superficial, i know..but i can't help it...

i know this comes a teeny weeny bit late....

2005-05-28T20:25:00.000-07:00

i'm at this cyber cafe in Genting right now...haha! my darling sis n bro are playing CS next to me...well,i don't really like that super bloody game so here i am...

i was pretty busy for the past week..been trying hard to read the book that ningyan bought for me!haha! it's a simple bk that teaches the basics for conversing in malay!!that's absolutely what i intend to learn this hols..grinz...betw,hammie and asrie,hav u guys found a chinese teacher yet??can approach me for help if u guys wanna learn chinese k...i'll tutor u both for FREE!! i'm nice rite??haha...

had no time to post some of the pictures that jing n i took during our last outing...i noe...i seem to post pics of only the limited few pple!ah well...can't be help!i'm not really a picture-fanatic person..(unlike you,siti...haha)
Anyway,me and jing went out the day before i lost my wallet...had a great time with her!!then again,we always enjoy each other's company...heee...

took this at the taka fountain...haha...posing like some tourist nuts!as usual,i had a few shots with really bad aiming...gave up in the end so tis is taken by jing! look like sisters???

jing wearing my new white jacket...the one that i bought from malaysia..haha! the jacket went super well with her outfit huh!gorgeous!

and tis is my newest and most darling bag!!!!!nice n shiny!haha!loveeeee it!yay!

we went to indochine for a lil drink...great place with superb live music!!

and these are the 2 drinks tt we ordered...they come with really cute names too...sex on the beach(left) and cosmopolitan(right)!! funny huh....

wanna say that i miss u hell of a lot gal!!!even when i'm having fun now,i still think of u quite a bit...wondering how u r and if the situation ure in(u noe what...) has brightened up for u! what's life without my best friend?? haha...don't worry,ningyan won't be jealous when he reads this...heeee...he's having his own lil fun without his nagging gf right now too!

my wallet!!!

2005-05-24T12:55:00.000-07:00

gosh...i had a terrible experience last sunday!as the title suggests,it has something to do with my wallet....

well, i went out with ningyan after having lunch at his hse...his mum prepared poh piah!and mann...i simply lovee poh piah!haha!so i had a great time wrapping my very own poh piah...yay!ate 4 rolls i think...yummy delicious! so after lunch, we went out...we were at Cathay Cineleisure to catch Starwars..it was the 9plus show..the movie was indeed fabulous,even for a non-starwars fan like me! after the movie,we rushed to sommerset stat to catch the last train back and oh mann...that was when i realised that my wallet was missing!!!!!! ARGH!!so we walked all the way back to Cathay...

the counter crew tried to help us locate my missing wallet by contacting the cleaners but to no avail..we even went back in the theatre in the company of an usher to look for my wallet...as they were already showing the next starwars,it was dark so we needed a torchlight!didn't find my naughty wallet anywhere...think someone must have picked it up! so we left the theatre..i was sooooo sad...i have so many cards in my wallet,including my IC,ATM card and EZ LINK...it was depressing when i thought of all the trouble i have to go through to replace them...so we sat out there for an hour plus and my poor bf had to console me!grinz...he's a real darling i must say!!!loveee you for being so sweet, dear!

decided to report the loss of my IC at the nearest police post that night...so we walked to orchard police post from Cathay..and guess what!! my shoe broke along the way...MANNN!can you believe my bad luck??????????haha! the strap broke so it's impossible to walk in them anymore...this was when my darling bf came to the rescue again!haha! he piggy-backed me most of the way there...thank goodness there was hardly anyone around at that time....hahaha!!think that ranks as one of the sweetest things he has ever done for me...really touched!!

well,was quite depressed so i didn't blog for days...but thank goodness for that honest person who picked up my wallet!he or she actually turned in my wallet to Nanyang police post in jurong west!haha!was sooo relieved when i received the call from the police...yippeeee!!!heee...and so, i went down yesterday to collect my precious wallet...wow!glad that there are still honest pple around us!

so the lesson learnt is to always check your belongings when you leave a place!always check!!!i've jolly well learnt my lesson!grinz...and also,do leave your IC at home if you do not need it...it will set you back by 100 bucks if you replace it!

back from malaysia!!!!!

2005-05-15T00:35:00.000-07:00

haven't been blogging recently cos i was out of singapore!went to malaysia with my friends for 7 days and i just came back yesterday!wow!it has really been a wk of fun and laughter!can't believe how quickly last wk has passed...bleh!i want more holidays!!!!!!!haha

so here's a short summary of my trip...shall add pics to make my summary even shorter!heee(i'm not really a big fan of writing!)

Day 1-Sat
Left Singapore with Hammie,Adila and Siti..had to trouble my dad's employee to send us to a bus stat in Larkin cos my dad doesn't know the way!so it's the 4 of us...plus asrie and Boredin(Boredin went in Asrie's car)! There was a really bad traffic jam at the woodlands checkpoint..we were moving at 1m every 5 min!!and so,the legendary sat evening traffic jam there is really true!Despite the bad jam,we managed to reach Larkin bus terminal before the boarding time..so we had dinner at MACS!It's the meeting point for the 6 of us you see..

me(centre) ,adila(right) and siti(left) at MACS!

we boarded the bus at 8pm...it was a really comfortable ride even though the driver was speeding like mad!!mann...he was driving a break-neck speeds even when turning!!haha

Day 2-Sunday
We reached Kuantan bus terminal in early morning..around 1plus am!had supper at a coffee shop nearby and i ordered my fav fav TEA TARIK!!!haha...i simply LOVEEE tea tarik...yummy!walked ard kuantan after supper and we decided to spend the night in a nearby hotel!the guys wanted to sleep in the lobby to save money but the we managed to dissuade them..so in the end,we booked into one room and slept till late morning!
had breakfast cum lunch at another coffee shop...i ordered 2 roti prata and mannn..the prata were HUGE!!!haha...managed to finish only 1 and 1/3!felt really bad bout wasting food..esp when the prata was delicious!

We checked out of the hotel after breakfast..and gosh,we were lucky to have spotted the bus on our way out..you see,it's an hourly bus!can't afford to miss!

me n siti on the bus to Cherating!Cherating,here we come!!!

reached Cherating in the afternoon..walked for a short distance to the Legends resort..the rooms are comfortable and cosy!grinz...

class pic at the balcony!

rested till dinnertime...had a great seafood dinner at Peninsular Seafood restaurant,which is really near our resort..ordered so much food! had chilli crabs,steamed prawns,sweet and sour fish,thai toufu,chicken with cashew nut!yummy!
we went back to our rooms after dinner and celebrated hammie's birthday!me,adila and siti had gone out before dinner secretly to buy some slices of cake for this occassion!it was a blueberry cheesecake!LOVELY!grinz...took lots of pics too!

started filming our horror movie that night!you see,harti and adila have worked out a script for a nice horror movie before this trip...haha!funny huh..but we decided that it would be a nice momento of this trip so we decided to do it!first to die in the movie was originally me..it was supposed to be a bathroom scene..i managed to talk boredin into exchanging roles with me so he took my place and became the first to die...shall not go into details bout the movie...heee...but in all,filming was fun!had lots of 're-takes'and bloopers!heehee

Day 3-Monday
woke up really late in the morning..had lunch at peninsular restaurant again!think the auntie was so touched that we went back again that she gave boredin a free bowl of rice!haha!had fun teasing bored bout tis!

finally got to go to the beach!mann...Cherating's beaches are impeccable!!the beauty is awesome!!!haha!

the pic doesn't do the beach justice!trust me,the scenery is REALLY beautiful!

played beach volleyball there for a while...well well...kept telling the guys not to dunk me but ah well...what can i say!i was the only gal they could dunk!haha!so what happened was...the volleyball flew out and landed in the swimming pool..i ran after the ball and was just about to shout for the guys to swim out for the ball when hammie sneaked up behing me and literally dragged and pushed me into the pool!!!ARGH!!!haha!

After dinner,we went back to the hotel...goaded bored to sing at a club and he actually agreed!haha!so all of us bought drinks to enter the club and bored asked the performers for permission to sing...it was really nice..had it all filmed down..mann...was serenaded by bored's good singing!grinz...he sang 'somewhere out there'!a nice and slow song that i love!way to go,bored!!!heeee

Day 4-Tues
left Cherating in the morning by taking the same public bus back to kuantan..grinz!from kuantan,we took a coach to KL..slept most of the way there cos i was soo tired..hee..

arrived at Pudu bus stat at KL..walked a short distance to our next hotel!it's the swiss inn!do not get fooled by the name for it is a budget hotel with really really...i mean REALLY tiny rooms!haha!was pretty shocked to see the rooms..smallest hotel room i've ever seen..hardly any space to walk around!bleh...the bathroom was horrible too!with yellowish water and standing showers..mann..sad..there was even cigarette smoke in the gals' room!ARGH!shall stop bitching bout the rooms now..no choice right..we gotta save money!haha!the only redeeming point bout the hotel is that it is located right in the heart of chinatown!woo hoo!that means a bustling night market full of cheapo stuff!heeee

went walking around after resting..we found a nice cosy indian restaurant for dinner!had really nice naan!for those ignorant ones,naan is similar to roti prata..type of pastry that is eaten together with curry!yummy!lovee it!had tandoori chicken to go along with it too..i made a big boo boo when ordering my drink though.i wanted teh tarik but since it was really stuffy and hot,i wanted an iced drink!sooo...i ordered iced teh tarik!the waiter stared at me really 'funnily'...hammie quickly corrected me by ordering an iced teh...hahaha!!get it??'tarik' actually means a pulling action..it's wat the vendor do cool off the hot teh slightly before serving..so there's no such thing as iced teh tarik!ARGH!!!so embarrassed!

walked around central market after dinner...grinz..bought many personalized keychains and bookmarks for my dear friends,sis and cousin in singapore!was too tired to continue shopping at the night market after that..we bought lychees there and then went back to our rooms to retire for the night.

Day 5-wed
woke up early to explore KL..took malaysia's MRT and LRT to Berjaya times square!there's a HUGE indoor theme park there...haha!all of us enjoyed ourselves and sat on almost all the thrill rides...siti was complaining though...haha!had to drag her onto most of the rides!poor gal!but i'm sure she had fun too!

went shopping after that...hee..went to 2 shopping malls and mann...there are simply too many shops!!!!!they are like 4 far east plaza combined!haha!had very little time to shop though so i only had time to buy wat i always wanted!

lovely white jacket,don't u think??goes with anything!yay!lovee it!

finally bought a nice FCUK shirt!!!!!!!!!!Gorgeous!!!!yay!

mann...blogging the whole trip is getting too tiring..i need to sleep!there's sch tomorrow..*groan* the rest of my pics can be found at the link on the right!yawn...maybe i'll continue tomorrow...hee..tata!

collages

2005-05-05T16:50:00.000-07:00

well,i was reading URBAN today when i came across this blog.It's by someone by the name of Belinda Lee..she's a mother of 2 and she creates BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL accessories with beads,stainless wires,crystals,etc.Necklaces,bracelets,earrings..gosh..u name it,she can make it!grinz...gosh! the pieces are elaborate,elegant and fun to wear!She runs a home business and mainly makes jewellery for friends and relatives..But they are also for sale! thank goodness! hee...all gals should visit her blog to find out more about her jewellery!so check it out here!

Read part of her blog too..and found out that it is actually real easy to make collages from photographs!wow!i tried out that with my computer,using photos that i took with jing...lots of fun!haha!maybe i'm just a 'mouontain tortise' huh..who is generally blur with IT stuff..shan't bother denying that!haha!

cool huh!selected some of my fav pics for this collage!wonder if i can print it out looking like that at a photo shop....hmmmm...

notice the difference??i used 'warmify' enhancing tool for this...it warms up the pic by enhancing the skin tones...nice!

This comes with a bluish-green or greenish-blue...watever.. tint!

Now,for a purplish-pink tint! girly..but i loveee it!haha

And finally,the never-go-out-of-date sepia tint!Lovely!

dead tired from running

2005-05-04T19:00:00.000-07:00

Wow!! i'm amazed at what i can do.Really..mann...i actually dragged myself down to my condo's gym this morning before breakfast..haha!Plus i managed to convince myself for another round of workout after lunch too. so that's twice today!!mann...who would have thought that lazy me would actually go to the gym twice today???haha

Ran 4km in the morning session and 5km in the afternoon session.Do your math..that's a total of whooping 9km today!!!!mann...it's unprecedented!alright,i may have ran more when i was training in track but this....this is purely from self-motivation!!See guys...JLo pics do help!!I'm soo proud of myself,Jing! You know how much i hate running long distance! Think 80% of my leg muscles are pure white muscles(sprinter muscles).So this is really a BIG accomplishment!

I'm feeling skinnier already!haha!Great!I shall try to continue running like that tomorrow.I'm trying to run off as much calories as possible before my malaysia trip on Sat...I'll probably eat like mad during the trip...Ah...all the good food! Who'll be able to resist???? heee

tankini????shld i??

2005-05-03T23:56:00.000-07:00

haha...went out again with Jing today!!my dear old pal...we aimed to save more money for our bangkok trip in july so we had lunch at Scotts foodcourt!Ordered my fav beef noodles special set!loveed it!worth the calories too...haha!

Watched the Interpretor at Lido..a pretty good show,i'd say.Really deep and has a complicated plot!I find the pace of the movie a lil too fast for me to understand the plot fully...haha..i know hamid and asrie will say that that's becos it's me watching! bleh...i don't care..it's still complicated!but it's a nice show...and Nicole Kidman is super duper chio!!!Beautiful to bits even without much makeup in the movie!!

Nicole Kidman looking ridiculously beautiful and classy even in specs!!!life is indeed unfair!!!!

went around looking for tankinis after tea at our fav coffee place..mann...nike tankinis are so expensive!!a hefty 90plus bucks!gosh!!!y must gals pay so much more than guys for swim wear????unfair!!looked around in taka dept store too...lots of swim wear there too...n i really mean lots n lots!!haha!found another nice one which costs around 60bucks...sigh..still ex!haiz...decided to stick to my bikini!shall not swim during the malaysia trip then!argh!bleh....

got home really late tonight...yawnz!shall stay home tmr...too tired to go out anymore!haha...shall make up for eating all the good food these past few days by exercising twice tmr...!!!heee..with determination,i'll succeed in dragging myself down to the gym!!!haha!

something from Jing's blog

2005-05-03T11:53:00.000-07:00

Found this from jing's blog...a really touching poem that she found...think this poem is really true in many points..the way how gals would want guys to be braver and take the initiative..and the way guys are afraid to take the leap for fear of embarrassment and awkwardness...Although this poem doesn't really apply to me now,but i still appreciate the author's insights...

you see me walking down the road with someone else,
It's not because I like his accompany...
Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat
If you see me fall for someone new
Its not because I love him..
But because you're not there to catch me fall
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?..
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound
Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with..
Don't let me talk of him,
it's you I want to talk with..
Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with..

the guy's reply to all these banter:

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me
When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship
When you thought I wasn't there to catch you,
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom,
you've already grabbed a branch
If you feel like you are nowhere,
I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk about something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.

class outing

2005-05-02T23:57:00.000-07:00

Went out yesterday again..met Ningyan at Cine to catch the 3.30pm Coach Carter!!I can't help gushing over the movie..it's soooo GOOD!!!!Really...i don't care what the reviews say..to me, it's one of the best movies i've watched!haha...not that i've watched many movies...AHEM AHEM...

I almost cried when i was watching...it's not just about the story,which happens to be true..but it's the dialogs and how much coach carter cared about the futures of his players...really touching...made me think a lot about how fortunate i am to be here in singapore and to receive my education in top prestigious schs..I am just so lucky that my path to being a doctor is set..All that's left to do is to pass every yr of my 5 yr course(and i've already passed one yr)..i'm such a lucky pig...

Left ningyan to his own devices in the evening for a class gathering...my dearest S03A from RJC...gosh...haven't met soooo many pple for so long..tousif, boredin, regina,enping,yingwei...glad that they are all doing well and r happy!we had dinner at PS Swensens..took soo super long to decide what to order due to me binging the day before yesterday with jing!haha!ordered pizza in the end and i ended up eating only half cos of the layer of oil on it..mannn...i was greatly perturbed when i was eating it..kept staring at the oil..mann..haha!exchanged it for a bit of chef's salad that enping ordered..not great but at least it's healthy!

Left the place and went Paradigm for pool..didn't play though cos i suck at it...besides,it's a boring game!haha! some self-consolation there...anyway,we left the pool place after 20 mins as most of us didn't want to play..we ended up walking towards PS,then Orchard,hoping to find a nice place to talk...and guess what..it being a Sunday night with Mon as a public holiday,we couldn't find any place at all..all cafes, restaruants were packed!!ARGH!!so we walked and walked and walked...finally,we decided to go home...stupid!!haha!funny eh...gosh...someone should seriously plan activities to do before we meet up again!ARGH!!was sooo tired during the bus ride home...yawn...

i was sitting at the back...betw,boredin brought along some non-class members!!

me looking apprehensively at the menu and counting calories again!!!help!

Outing with Jing!!!

2005-05-01T09:15:00.000-07:00

Went out with jing yesterday...haha!!Mann...it was sooo nice to meet up with a dear old fren after what seems like ages!! grinz...

Met at Scotts for lunch and then walked to Wisma for tea at our fav haunt-Coffee Club...haha...It's such a nice and relaxing place to talk!! Went against my calorie counter there and just had to order prata wrap...heeeee!couldn't help it mann...Go try the mango chicken flavour!it's the best!!Seafood and chicken tika are not as nice...yummy!!took lots of pics there...i loveeee her camera!!!it's from Casio series! Large screen and with multiple functions!!oh no...i really do regret buying my camera just becos it's pretty!!! mine's the Canon Ixus i5..sad sad...i wan to auction it off and hopefully, get around $500 for it...ARGH!!!my mum will probably kill me since my camera is so super new..bought it only this yr in Jan...Hai!check out the pics here

Went around shopping and looking at stuff...ended up buying a nice bikini that is dark brown with pink trimmings...not bad!!!really cheap too...bought it at far east!Bought a pair of flip flops too at cine...grinz...now, i'm all set for my beach vacation at Cherating(in malaysia)!!!haha!yay!!can't wait to set off for it this coming sat...oohh..

hee...After shopping and tea, I dragged Jing to go check out the M1 Schs' Touch Rugby tournament.. Ningyan,my bf, took part with his ex rugby team mates...Weisheng,Justin,Yao Kuan,Leon...5 of them! Guess what they called themselves.......haha!! FAT CATS!!!haha!!!Couldn't stop laughing when they told me that...found out later that FAT CAT is Yao Kuan's nickname...grinz...well,they thrashed all the teams to enter the finals...I only managed to watch the finals...they were up against the SMURFS! It was such a fast-paced game,alternating between defense and attack modes...mann...didn't know my bf can run like that!!!hahahaha!!Those who know him would think that he's such a big block of solid muscles...clumsy and slow...but mann...i didn't know he can be soooo agile!!hahaha!! They lost in the end by a narrow margin...sigh...poor things... they really should have won!!haiz...nvm..at least they got second! They received a medal and a pair of cathay movie tickets!!grinz...

Went to Taka's coffee club for dinner!As expected,i ordered seafood marina again...what to do??it's my fav type of pasta!!yummy!!worth every bit of the money and calories!didn't order any desert though...CALORIES!!oh no!!*shivers*ARGH! Go try the tiramisu there...nicest in town!!LOVEEE it to bits!!

went walking aroung after dinner...nothing much...went home after that cos we were both sooo tired!!But i'm really happy to see jing!!Talked about everything under the sun...and of course, we gossip-ed a lot tooo!!gals are gals huh!! so glad that she sorted out some personal issues...i'll always be here for you gal,no matter wat...!!Can't wait for tues when we're meeting again...it'll be lots of shopping,movie and more pics!!!!LOVEEEEE ya to bits!!!*Huggies*

Scotts' toilet has huge mirrors!!haha! mirror shot! me and my short skirts...i lovee short skirts!!

At Wisma's coffee club...me and my bad aiming...heh heh...

Seeing double!!!haha!thx to jing's camera....

my dear old fren!!!CUTE CUTE!!

Sepia mode!Jing's camera...seee..that's why i fell in love with her camera!!!bleh bleh..

And now for the monochrome shot! Think we look older???haha

me and my bf!!wat a big colour constrast!!!hahaha!!!!he's dripping wet with sweat from the match!

JLo

2005-04-27T23:40:00.000-07:00

Grinz...just found new pics of JLo to motivate me harder for my Project Hot Bod!! these pics are yummy delicious...and nope,i'm not a lesbian! haha! The pics are there just for motivation...and jing, i'm so glad you are already joining me in my Project!heeee...Together, we can conquer the impossible and make it real!yay yay!haha!How about Hammie?? You were the one who called this 'Project Hot Bod'...have you been working out profusely too?? hee...especially when nurul is returning so soon huh!! Bet u can't wait to show off ur muscles to her! hahahaha!relax buddy, i can understand!Between, think pics really help...really really help in motivating us! so go find some pics of artistes with ur dream bodies and look at the pics day and night yah?? grinz..

Gosh...her abs!!!i want too!!! *drool*

closer look at her abs!!

alrightie,enough said! i'm going running!!!!!!!!

Gourmet delights!! yummy!!

2005-04-27T16:46:00.000-07:00

Here's introducing my fav potato chips!! It's crispy and unlike other brands, it has a unique tangy flavor!! yummy...It's the Kettle chips-Honey Dijon! Gosh...It's absolutely worth the money, I must say! Although it's pretty ex ($2 plus for a tiny minute amt...Think it's about twice as ex as other chips...), but trust me, you will really LOVE it to bits!!! muahaha!! I bought 2 packets straight the other day..Supposed to be for my darling sis but as expected, I wasn't able to stop myself from gobbling down the chips..Mann..Think I ate bout one whole packet!!! and that's a 300 calories straight!!Mann...hahaha!It's really tooooo out-of-this-world to resist! jing, you gotta try it!! hee...betw, I'm not paid to advertise for them yeah?! Unfortunately, this fan-tabulous brand is not available at all leading supermarts! You'll only be able to buy it at Starbucks(not Coffee Bean) and Pacific Coffee! Plus not all the branches of Starbucks have the FINGER-LICKING good-tasting Honey Dijon flavor! grinz..need i say more?? Go get it!

There it is!!! Finger-licking good!!! YUM YUM!!!

Alrightie, for the next part of meifang's Gourmet Delights, we have the incredible and absolutely tasty meifang's choc chip muffins!!!!!!!!!!! MUAHAHAHA! HEEEE... need i say more?? It's incredibly soft and tender(oopss...That's to describe chicken huh...haha)...crispy on the outside and soft on the inside! FAN-TABULOUSLY FANTASTIC! haha!
Not bad ok...considering it's my first attempt at baking muffins...Alright alright, my mum helped a lil!! really lil ok...haha! My stupid bro said they are awful but he ate 2 in a row...That idiot! Too stubborn to give me the credits....HRMP!!

haha!!there they are! my creation!! Meifang's choc chip muffins!

A closer view.....Yummy yum yum!!

some luxury items...AWWW!

2005-04-24T23:32:00.000-07:00

Awwww...was surfing the net for some fashion stuff when i came across Guess website! gosh...i'm totally in love with the shoes and bags! sigh...it's a pity that they're so expensive! haiz...jing...when will we ever find the kind of money for such stuff! haha...by the time we do, we'll no longer be young and funky teenagers...we'd be old and haggard and frumpy by then!Then what's the use of wearing nice clothes...mann...haha!! we'll probably look more like a whale and an hour-glass by then too...sad sad...sad sad...Let's go either Hong Kong or Shanghai to shop!Think there's lots of variety and the prices are not too steep...yeah??? hee...till then, i shall be satisfied by feasting my eyes on the pretty..oohh..so pretty pictures!haha

What a fantabulous-looking pair of shoes!!haha!found it on the Guess website....AWWWW!wait...here's more from the Guess collection!

Awww!!! Think i'm having a fetish for pink or peach coloured high heels!!!They match every other possible colour on mother earth!! Jing!!! We gotta go shopping!!haha..

Nice hobo bag, don't you think! funky!!

It's called the 'vintage fly banana'! i like its shape! cute!

My bro = a man??

2005-04-20T01:21:00.000-07:00

Nothing that interesting happened today (that's because I slept the entire afternoon.....I'm such a pig...yes, I know that already..haha), except for this...
Well, I was watching TV as usual in my usual position on the couch when my cocky bro walked into the living room...Mind you, he's getting more cocky everyday! He lay on the floor to watch TV..and I looked at his skinny limbs and wondered if they could actually be called legs and arms...haha! So I commented and jested at him for being so skinny...Being as cocky as he is, he challenged me to arm wrestling...Mind you,I have always, and I mean absolutely ALWAYS, beaten him at that so I wasn't afraid to accept his challenge...
The place?? In the living room and at the coffee table..haha! The audience?? my parents...haha! Anyway, we proceeded with the challenge at my dad's count...And guess what? He actually managed to beat me!!!Mann...How could that be?? I mean, all he does is attend some NCC trainings, which he sometimes skip!! Unbelievable!!I asked for a rematch and lost that as well...MANN!!
Had to admit though..That my bro is not as skinny as before..He's darker now and there're some recognizable traces of muscles (biceps mainly...and maybe the quadriceps...)..haha!But he's still a skinny idiot!Think he's really approaching puberty..AHHH...with the rise in GnRH and hence, release of FSH and LH, causing testosterone levels to rise and hence, DHT! That should explain his newly found muscles!!haha! I'm a mean pig..I know that...But I like being a mean pig...Thanks!
So would I call my bro a growing man??I highly doubt so...He's still as much the skinny geek as before...NAH...he'll never be a MAN! I'm quite sure of that...haha!At least, not in my eyes...

kayaking

2005-04-19T19:22:00.000-07:00

Had a really fun day yesterday at East coast...went out with a couple of friends - hamie, Asrie, Mohanna, Harti, Neela, Adila- for a day of adventure!!
Well, the original plan was to kayak our hearts out for an hour...but goodness me, 10 mins into our kayaking adventure and it started pouring like nobody's business!!! mann...what a big letdown!! haha...in the end, we had no choice but to stop kayaking due to the low visibility and choppy sea...spent another 15 mins or so playing Pepsi cola on the beach which surprisingly, turned out pretty fun...grinz...hamie won in the end though i think it's because he was the only guy there (Asrie joined in late...) and guys have longer limbs...haha! The skies lightened up after that and we managed to kayak for another 20 mins or so...it was really fun, especially when hamie tried to jump onto my (with Mo! )kayak...mann...that idiot...haha! it was hilarious!!
Well, our adventure wasn't really one as we only managed to kayak a mere 400m from shore??? haha...pathetic huh!! grinz... Had to carry the kayaks back to shore after that and boy, it was soooo tough!! didn't expect it to be more tiring than kayaking itself...mannn....or maybe it's because i'm more flabby now...where did all my muscles go????? Come back!!! hee...ah well!!! sigh!! And indeed, i'm now much darker...all thanks to the many blue blacks that i acquired when i was carrying the kayak...mann, talk about being sunburnt!!haha...i'm still as pathetically fair as before! *whine*

my poor right leg!!!

oh and not forgetting my poor left leg!!

Can't wait for my trip with them to malaysia!! Oooh...so fun!! haha...we decided to lengthen the trip by 2 days to Genting! ahhhh...i'll be the tour guide in Genting...grinz!! i'm so super familiar with the shortcuts and routes and eating places! hamie can be our tour guide in KL! Great! shall shop like mad in KL!!! Yipee!! Gals do what they do best huh!! grinz...

la la la laaaa....

2005-04-16T13:45:00.000-07:00

It's yet another boring saturday afternoon...bleh bleh...just checked out some stuff on changing the photograph on my passport..haha! had to change it before i embark on my many trips this hols..was warned the other time by an immigration officer just this year when i attempted to cross the Singapore-Johor straits...heh heh...my parents spent some time trying to convince him that i am indeed the passport holder!!! ah well...i guess i really look different from my pri sch photo...alrightie,fair enough...his suspicions were well justified!! hee...well, at least i look better now!!(i hope! i was a lil fatty when i was young.........BOO HOO!!)
So let's see...i printed out the form to change my photograph...not sure if i should extend my passport too..it's expiring next yr nov...probably see what the person says when i'm at the centre! i'm clueless about all these stuff...mann...haiz!
Think i'm really bad at planning...wanted to go to australia with my cousin this hols...esp when Quantas is having a big 70th yr anniversary promotion!! But when i went to the website, there're just too many things to decide and to work out before booking the tickets...(the booking of tickets end 19th April, mind you...)ah well! too bad my cousin is having exams till 3rd may...so she can't help me out with the decision-making...shall just have to skip this promotion and wait for others...BOO HOO!! :<
Supposed to organise a chalet gathering for my anatomy group this hols too...Daniel and I both felt that we should but he's pushing me to do the job! **BISH**Haha...guess i'll wait till the vivas are all over before i make any plans...wonder how i'm going to get a 21 yr old to book the chalet for me....haiz...headache! shall go bug the rest to do it...bleh bleh..
Okie...think i've only things to complain for today and i had better stop complaining cos it's unhealthy and bad for the soul??? haha.....

checkup!

2005-04-15T16:22:00.000-07:00

Had an appointment with a neurologist at Mount Elizabeth Hospital today...supposed to have a checkup for a final medical report to be sent to the insurance company...
So i went with my mum to orchard in the morning...the checkup went pretty smoothly...the doc, Dr Yeow, was a nice and friendly guy...he asked me about details to the accident...tested me on the 12 cranial nerves and which foramen or fissure they pass through (luckily i could still remember...haha!)...tested my spinal reflexes with all the respective taps...tested my eye movements and intrinsic reflexes...not bad! i did well...passed all the tests and he certified me live, well, and kicking!!! haha...he even assured my mum that i'm still as smart as before though my mum doesn't quite believe that..haha...
Dr Yeow also took time to explain the why extradural hemorrhage (my condition) is more acute than subdural hemorrhage...ah! i didn't expect it though...i've always thought that the deeper the hemorrhage is in relation to the 3 layers of meninges, the more critical the condition will be...heh...He also explained what may happen if surgery is not performed immediately...haha...pretty interesting huh...felt that i learnt a lot today!! :>
After the checkup, i literally dragged my mum for a shopping trip (she was complaining all the way about her aching legs...haha...)..went to Tangs,Wisma and Taka...bought a pair of loop earrings and a Risis charm bracelet!! hee...it was such a nice bracelet! it's supposed to make dreams come true...and gosh, it sure did! as i was trying on the bracelet, Ham messaged to tell me that i'm not on the 'extinction' viva' list for biochem!! yipee!!! felt so relieved (did the worst for biochem paper) and happy that i just had to buy the bracelet...heeeeee.....yay!!! :>
Between, i'm going to take up dancing i think! shall look up some available courses...cool huh! hope it's not too late at my age!!! heee....

2yrs and 2mths!! : )

2005-04-15T00:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was such a happy day!!! my dearest bf, ningyan gave me such a surprise...he called me at 2 plus in the afternoon to ask me out in the evening (he usually doesn't call till about 11 plus at night....ha!) it was such a pleasant surprise!!
Silly me...i had forgotten that today's date is 14th April...Our 26th month anniversary!!! yay!! haha...lost track of the dates you see....ah well...silly me... So we went out for a celebration...it was nothing that special but at least he remembered! (sweet!)
Wanted a sushi buffet at sakae westmall (it'd be convenient for him to return back to camp if we ate at westmall...) but in the end, he decided to go to city hall since it's a special occassion! we took super long to decide where to eat but we settled on Country Mana at Suntec...yummy!haha...had to break my dieting regimen for that day! haiz...hee...
stayed around city hall area...had coffee after dinner at Pacific Coffee and bumped around for a few hours before taking a cab back...haha! gosh...we talked for so long over a few cups of coffee!! really happy that he got through the first round of selection for NUS medicine...well, the interview is coming up and the essay writing is next week! wow! super soon huh...gave him some sample questions as to what they may ask during the interview...well, his answers are really not bad...grinz.. yay!! i've lots of confidence in him that he'll get in! :> but still, i shall help him out with the preparations for the interviews...*wink*

unemployment!

2005-04-12T18:51:00.000-07:00

haiz...i've always known how difficult it is to find a job..especially if it is a temporary one...That is through my experiences during my 7 month break last year, where i could only managed to land myself in a 3 week stint at CPF...ah well...money is such a precious commodity, don't you all agree??
Anyway, i tried to look for a waitressing job today...went for an interview at Suntec mall...It's a turkish restaurant..a really small but cosy one! The owners look approachable and amiable and friendly...After a short interview, they decided that i could try for work tomorrow..gosh..i was really happy! Had to lie to them that i caould commit myself for 3 months...felt really bad and guilty after i left the restaurant... how could i be so selfish, i mean??? terrible!!!
Felt so terrible when i reached home that i sought the opinions of both my sis and mum..finally, i decided to reject the job offer! BOO HOO!so sad...it took me sooo long to find one and now i've rejected it!!! ARGH!! But at least i can go easier on my conscience! haiz...what a trade-off... :<
So i am still currently jobless!! haiz...sad case...my mum told me to stay at home and she'll feed me 3 meals a day (actually i only need 2 meals a day since i wake up so late every morning...haha...i usually wake up just in time for lunch you see...)..
Maybe i'll try again for a job tomorrow!! gosh..am i persistent huh! but you see..i really need money to finance my shopping trips,as well as my holidays! ahhhh...money....where r you???? Alright...i'm going mad............HELP!!

Project HOT BOD!!

2005-04-11T20:15:00.000-07:00

Finally got around to starting my Project Hot Bod today...after much reluctance,i finally changed out and got down to the gym for an invigorating session!!haha...
Well,my general plan is to combine cardiovascular workout and toning exercises!!haha..not sure if it'll work if you check my blog in a month's time, i'll probably be able to update you guys on my progress...hee..think it's every girl's dream to attain a hot bod! so if any girl says that she is not interested or that she has much loftier ambitions than caring about the type of figure she has, she is most probably and 99percent lying to you...it's just another fact of life, i guess! THAT girls are vain in nature!! grinz..
By 'HOT BOD', i mean a well toned body! it doesn't necessarily mean super slim but it must most definitely be toned! look at J lo for instance..look at her toned abs and thighs and of course, her butt..she is not skinny but she is HOT!! That's a hot bod there...*wink*
So gearing up for this holiday project of mine, i'm going to the gym everyday..well maybe except saturdays or sundays...i'm giving myself a rest day every week! Planning to run everyday for at least half h(hoping to increase it to an h eventually) and do conditioning for the next h...cool huh! haha! hope my determination lasts long enough for me to see the effects!
So what exactly do i do for conditioning??well, it's no secret i promise...you've probably read it a few million times in the mag or some fitness guru's website...i do crunches, biceps curl, triceps extension, forward lunge, back lift and sit-ups...3 sets of 15-20 repetitions.. should be good enough! in fact, i'm already aching from my Day 1 workout..haha! how useless right?? Nah...i will persist, endure and emerge victorious!!!haha! grinz...
Hopefully at the end of it all, my bf will STOP pinching my flabs and fats and for once, praise me for my bod! alright alright.. he does say that i'm too skinny but ah well...that's not what i want to hear!! ARGH!!

mann...JLo has such a hot bod!! *drool*drool* I want!!!! ahahaha...

another lazy afternoon! :>

2005-04-10T15:49:00.000-07:00

Well well...what do we have here...it's another lazy afternoon! at ningyan's hse now...haha..tt idiot is sooo super tired tt he's fast asleep on his bed.. ah well.. i'm left to my own devices as usual..yawn yawn!! hee..
kinda bored so i decided to post another msg.. as u can see.. there AREN'T many msgs on my blog..just started it u see!!i need more time...more time!!hee.. okie.. it's the afternoon sun getting to my brains...yawn!
feeling really happy with my shopping trip yesterday.. shopped all day long with my sis! ha! spent so much money but it's all in the name of retail therapy,isn't it?? well..as the name suggests,it's good for the body, mind and soul! heck bout e money spent!it's worth it! grin.. let's see wat i bought.. hmmm.. well, bought a little blue Guess bag from Tangs..n a really nice black bustier top from Topshop! gosh..it's heavenly! haha! *applause applause* love it like mad! bought a Ripcurl wallet for my sis.. it's her advance birthday presie u see..(i'm usually not tt generous...ha!) together between us, we bought 4 other pairs of outrageous earrings! gosh...jing, aren't u glad ur dear friend here is finally trying something outgrageous?? haha... well.. i'm kinda bored with the ordinary-looking earrings...yay!!! hee.. took me sooo long huh!
Bought something for my mum too.. it's a little wap-around thing for her cracked heels.. poor thing.. she has been working too hard for this family!
Hmmm...i'm still waiting for my dear bf to wake up from his deepest of deep slumber!! ARGH!!! maybe i should go do something bout it.. like pinch him on the nose?? or worsee, tickle him like mad!!! (PS: HE HATES IT!!) hahahaha!

life is so unfair... :<

2005-04-09T20:35:00.000-07:00

Some of you guys out there may not have read the newspapers today...my sister pointed out a short article in the papers today..it's about an ACJC rugby captain who is currently unable to talk or walk after a fateful car accident that happened on Jan 2... gosh..my heart really goes out to him..he reminded me of my own car accident,which took place last yr in Aug..
I'm just so so so soooo plain lucky...i got off the accident,almost unscathed..fractured only the parietal bone of my skull and had an extradural hematoma over the right frontal lobe(some medical terms...grinz...)..according to my doc friend who visited him in the hospital a few months back, he had the exact same injuries..extradural hematoma and some fractures..but y did he turned out so much worse?? i'm just appalled at the way life is..how lucky i am..or how unfortunate some people are....and my heart really goes out to these people..god..we even shared the same surgeon!!!
i went to visit him in the hospital a few months back,when he was still in and out of consciousness...his parents were so relieved to see me...they told me that i brought them new hope that their poor son will still be able to continue with life like he did before the accident...i guess...after what i read today...that this was not to be...he can't even chew on his own now...sigh...poor guy poor guy poor guy...
i guess we'll never know what life has in store for us...yes, we can always plan ahead,plan for the future...but anything can happen midway to hijack all our plans...i'd never be able to realise my dream to become a doc if i had died that very morning...i'd never have known that i'd be knocked down by a car when i was crossing that road on my way to sch that wed morning.
after my accident, it has made me realised jus how so precious life is...nobody can control exactly how his life turns out..what we can do...as i realised, is to cherish those people whom you love...this may sound cliche but look..how very true it is...
To those who have read about this article, please pray for him..for him to recover soon...and pray for strength for his parents to continue holding on.

Life is not a bed of roses

2005-04-07T23:52:00.000-07:00

Life is not a bed of roses
finally got around to starting a blog... haha!tis is cool! alright, i know i'm kinda outdated cos this thing has been ard for eva..ah well...but beta late than never right! still trying out a few things here and there..so i'm not expecting myself to start posting seious thoughts so soon! so long guys!